"Be still, and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the heathen, I will be exalted in the earth." -Psalms 46:10.
The Lord is good to me, beyond my deserving and understanding.
I'm close to my family, my friends are just darling, and my sweetheart, well he's my best friend and true love. What more could a girl desire?
You’re exhausted in the faith because you’re looking at you. The more you look at yourself and the less you look at God, the more you get frustrated at yourself.
—Matt Chandler (via abideinhislove)
(Source: virtualquill)
I’m about to look at an apartment. I am so eager to be on my own, but I’m not sure it’s time yet. I’m just now starting to really take over my expenses. How will I pay for school if I’m paying for a place? And my family will let me stay. I’m ready to be on my own, but I don’t know if my finances are. I know I could do it if it weren’t for school. I’ve paid my way all this time. And I have to get a degree. Quitting school just isn’t an option.
I am putting my trust in Christ. If it’s time, that will be revealed to me. If its not, I pray He’ll give me patience. My true desire is to live in His will for me.
I am beginning a social media fast for the month of May. If you would, pray for me and all God has in store. If you feel called, join me. I will replace the time I spend on social networking with reading the Bible and devoting myself to prayer. I am thrilled to grow in Christ!
I’m 20 now.
Birthdays are so much work. I’m far too stressed over a day that’s supposed to be full of joy. My birthday plans basically fell apart and in trying to salvage them, I lost all excitement. I just want to lay in really comfy sweatpants and watch new girl or play sims and cuddle with Josh.
I’ve been dealing with some insecurity lately and that’s kind of a bummer. I don’t know what it is, but my disorder has seemed so present lately. I’ve been taking my medicine and stayed on a good sleep schedule, minus tonight. I feel like a mess sometimes and I don’t enjoy that. I think this down is leading to healing. Christ has my heart, He will not fail me.
I do want to mention that I have felt more like myself than I ever have. This last year has been good to me. I feel like I’m just getting to know the real me since my disorder had clouded my view my whole life. My relationship with Christ is blooming rapidly and I am in awe. I sense that some will read this and judge me for it, but I don’t mind. I don’t want to mind. My disorder might try to convince me otherwise, but the truth fills me and comforts my heart.
The judgement I see popping up on Facebook and everywhere else lately has broken my heart. I just cannot grasp idea of it. Someone is happy, yet they shouldn’t be happy according to your terms of what is and isn’t acceptable so they are clearly deserving of ridicule. I will never understand this world’s wicked ways.
End of birthday girl’s rant.
